It's been over a year since I've left the NGBBS. Many thought my departure was an April Fools joke. I can tell you it wasn't, and neither is this: I've been living a lie on the BBS. I'm not really like my internet persona, I was just a troll. And a damn good one.
You see, it was all a joke to me. And I've fooled many for a long, long time. There were others that could see through me, but only a small handful. Why was I the way I was? It's easy. The internet means a lot to some people. It was so easy to ruin their day in such a small little way. Banning people for no reason and making up excuses, deleting their posts, etc.
So, why did I quit? Well, it all caught up to me. Trolling the BBS can take a lot of time. Time that could have been spent doing other things. I lost my girlfriend for not spending enough time with her. I quit an easy job because it was interfering with my time on the BBS. Those two factors lead to me drinking heavily and fall into a deep depression... which just made me worse as a mod. I was banning people because I didn't like their name, because they couldn't spell right, because I thought they had shitty tastes in music, movies, etc. It was time for me to let it go. I stopped drinking as much, got a new job, met a new girl. I'm happy now, but I still miss the BBS.
That being said, I'm going to be coming back. I won't be a mod, and I won't be a troll. I'll just be me. It'll be weird, but I'm going to try to not slip into my old ways. Now, all you users that are reading this thinking "I knew it all along!" all I have to say is, the joke is on you.
[edit] just so things are 100% clear, look at the date of this post, and then maybe you will understand all this.
Idiot-Finder
So you're not dead?